Things which are wrong with me!

People see me as a strong person. A person who does not show her weakness. Someone who does not trust people easily. Someone who is realistic and practical. Someone who has, her life figured out. People see me as a person who is full of wisdom.

But no one knows the things which are wrong with me and the things I struggle with.

I am someone who is afraid to be vulnerable. Someone who believes that people are gonna walk all over her. Someone who believes that people are gonna break her heart if she is not careful enough. Someone who wants a deeper connection but afraid to show her wounds. Someone who is afraid to reveal too much about herself.

I am someone who believes that everyone is temporary and gonna leave after a while. Someone who prepares herself for a goodbye which has not been said yet.

I am someone who gets obsessed with people when I get too close to someone. I can’t get that person out of my head. I become dependent on that person for my happiness. I crave their attention and presence. I need constant reassurance in love.

I am someone who can’t ask for help. Someone who would rather suffer in silence than let people know about my struggle. Someone who would deal with her demons alone.

Sometimes I am someone who breaks her own heart.